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[doc_paradise]

I haven't seen many posts talking about this but I think it is something worth talking about.

https://theoutline.com/post/7267/living-with-passive-suicidal-ideation

Comments

[clevermanka]

This is a good article, and much needed because I feel like there's a LOT of us like this.

I haven't wanted to be alive for about...three years? maybe a little longer? I vacillate between Actively Hoping for Death and Merely Wishing To Not Be Alive. My best days are the ones where I'm not disappointed that I woke up that morning--the ones where I have only a sense of mild annoyance that I'm still here, still (barely) functioning.

And I know this isn't going to change unless my health improves significantly. Improves to a point that I honestly can't even see from here.

I won't kill myself--I know how sad and pissed off my friends would be and I will never put them through that unless things get so so SO much worse than they are.

But as far as being excited to be alive, not having that feeling of "gosh wouldn't it be great to just not wake up in the morning" no, I don't even remember how that feels.

And it's not something I think about unless it's pointed out to me. It's just my life. *shrug*

Keep on keeping on. Chop wood, carry water.

[thornsilver]

I guess for me personally it is a difference between "I want to be dead" and "I want to kill myself". And I am always on the first setting.

[ravena_kade]

Yes.

The Ocean.

is serving really living?

This...

[thetimesink]

But speaking freely need not solely carry the weight of prevention. It can simply be about the comfort of social connectedness and knowing you’re not alone.

Borrowing for use elsewhere.

[erratio]

YES this is an important piece of writing to exist

[dewline]

I just came back here, and stumbled into revisiting this post in particular three years and change after you published it. The timing seems just about right for various reasons today.

Some days, each of us just gets tired.